A snippet from my journal entry Day 2:
June 2, 2011 - Time with the Lord
It's funny how I'm at the beach, a beautiful town with beautiful weather, and what I find particularly beautiful about the Lord this morning is all the beautiful, worshipful people I'm surrounded by. I was reflecting this morning at how much God has worked in my heart and made me whole and strong. I was so worried about meeting everyone because I used to panic in large groups of strangers. But because of God's grace He has healed me of that insecurity and because He dwells in the hearts of all these people around me, yesterday wasn't hard at all, and in fact it was so much fun! It is such a beautiful sight to see so many hearts desiring to please and glorify God. And young people at that. I can't even begin to describe how encouraging and uplifting is is (ALREADY!) to be in this presence and environment! I was quite disheartened and weary at the end of the semester about living in a college environment and whatnot, but the past day has refilled me so much with being near to those who are near my God.
As cliche as it is, it's the truth and I have to say it: a year ago- no, not even six months ago- I would never have guessed that I would be here in Wildwood. God is so amazing in the way that He rules over our lives. My journey here didn't necessarily start with a calling, but with God's hand in a new and intimate friendship and a desire for something greater. I remember stressing about summer internships at the start of the semester and the more and more that I looked for a job, the more and more I became frustrated and uninterested in the places at which I was looking. And then a friend told me about Crusade Summer Projects. I remember starting my application and being so convicted through just this application that I broke down crying and really didn't want to finish it. But that same friend stayed by my side, encouraging me with the Word and God's truth and really supported me as I got through the application process. Sometimes I wonder if I ever would have finished my application if it weren't for my friend reaching out to me and letting God work through through them to change my heart. I'm so thankful for the people God brought into my life this semester. I do not know why He blesses me so.
And the support God provided monetarily for me to be here. Boy, am I so unbelievably thankful for such generous hearts. It has been such an interesting experience with all this support raising. My heart has been molded in so many ways. God turned my heart of fear and trying to be in control to such sheer reverence and trust in Him. I'm experiencing His grace like never before and longing to shout praises of gratefulness. It is so hard to express my gratitude and thankfulness to its true depths to the people who have supported me being here. At times I want to cry tears of humbleness at how blessed I am. My heart longs even more each day to glorify Him and please Him through my walk.
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